Do I want someone so uninvolved in my life, in my life???

I'd made enough mistakes in the past and was certain I had a firm grip on a quality life. I looked at what seemed important and moved to it. I was confident in who I was and what I believed.  I was happy and determined to stay that way. 7 years later I am so unhappy.  I have the security but nothing else, and that feels like an illusion as well. I have now mastered the art of compromise; rejecting my true self for what? If money is the root of all evil, then I believe I sold out to the power the lack of it has.